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Is anyone really ok with settling?

Is that something that comes with age? If so, at what age?

I don’t think I will ever be ok with anything less than my best…no matter how old or wise…and I’ve seen those less old and less wise than me, be content with settling. How does that even happen?

So by now, you most likely know that I’ve taken a tremendous leap of faith and hauled my ghetto booty across the country for some California love…and the job I’ve always dreamed of. But guess what?  I’m the new guy again. I’m the freshman. And me and all my know-it-all arrogance and confidence and social media smarts don’t mean a thing until I prove myself…again. How long did it take me to do this the last time? Oh yeah…years…and still, even then…wow. I’m not even going to get into it.

My problem is, and maybe it’s a virgo thing, I expect too much of myself. My expectations are high, and I will beat myself down if I fail…and it’s even worse when I feel that someone else is judging my failures. I was once told that if you don’t fail sometimes, then you are not trying hard enough.

seriously? what the fuck!

My career is part of who I am, it’s part of how I define myself, and anything less than succeeding is settling. It seems trivial to many people. My passion and frustrations can be comical…especially to those who do not share my ridiculous work ethic…but I’m in a unique position here in that there isn’t much more to my life right now besides taking crap out of boxes, moving non-existent furniture around, watching TV on the treadmill, and work. Ugh. no wonder i’m always the first one in the office.

Part of the inspiration behind this move was the hope that the more laid-back west coast lifestyle would help calm my neuroses. Failed there too…but hey, it’s only been a month.

I can agree that failure is part of growth…but accepting failure is not a part of achieving success. We should review our pitfalls, try to best understand our shortcomings, play to our strengths and evaluate how to overcome our struggles. Settling is not an option…and failing is not part of my make up. Recognizing a downward spiral before it spins out of control is a success…a small one, but it’s one step closer to achieving your goal.

How could anyone be satisfied being less than their full potential?

And this extends beyond work ethic…that is just one aspect of my life I am harping on today. We should always try to be all we can in everything we do…otherwise, why bother doing it? Time is too precious to waste on half-assed, half-hearted poorly executed opportunities.

Give it your all…you have more to lose by not giving a shit.

And that’s my rant for today.

<3 Melissa