Posts tagged pefection

I have had to remind myself on multiple occasions that yes, this is real life. That this sky is mine, this beach is mine, those palm trees…those are mine…that creepy man jerking off on the grass, he’s mine (ew!), that rainbow we saw this weekend, this dead battery (oops), your beautiful hands, your eyes, your fantastic hair…all mine. this is my life…and it’s a dream.

I see you there, through my screen, and wonder why it takes you so long to write…just say something damn it! And then you do…you always do.+++perfect timing.

I was waiting for you.

Sometimes things have to fall apart to fall into place. It’s scary at first, but when you can see the pieces joining together to create a more beautiful image—one that the you of today can appreciate…one that the you of yesterday may have never imagined could be—the end result seems to make memories of pain and the struggle melt away. You stop wondering why, and how, and the word “no” suddenly no longer exists and you are left with an exciting world of “yes!” and “why not?”

I hate to think of how much time we have spent on opposite sides of this country…it seems that one of us is always going, and it’s usually me…but this time it’s different. It just feels different. I can’t really explain it. Maybe we’ve figured this puzzle out…maybe.

I’ve spent so much of my life trying to make things fit. Take the pieces I have been given and force them into places they don’t belong…and none of it made any sense until I traded those pieces in for a new set. Or rather, I left the pieces behind, and I ended up here…on this couch…with this cupcake…in this place…with this unfaltering smile…and your beautiful hands.

<3Melissa